Happy New Year

The Christmas decor is tucked neatly back into boxes until December 2014. I love the clean, crisp feeling of my house after putting away Christmas, but I always miss the cheery lights and the sense of another celebration or party right around the corner. So does Scout apparently.

I am quite noticeably pregnant now. Something happened in the last two weeks and Hunter is coming in large and in charge. I'm also hungry all the time, but then feel like food gets stuck in my throat because it doesn't have anywhere to go. I think the worst thing that's happened is that I'm having trouble sleeping. I'm a fantastic sleeper. I fall asleep almost immediately and sleep very soundly through the night. I often wake up just minutes before my alarm clock. Now, I'm waking up to readjust pillows, trying to breathe, and getting kicked around from the inside. 

I cannot believe that our child will be here in about three months time. I feel like I should be doing lots of things to prepare, but there's not much to do yet. I haven't had any showers so I don't have any stuff to put together or wash or arrange. I'm doing a little bit of reading, but the reading mainly validates that I'm feeling the appropriate symptoms of hunger, anxiety, itchy skin, and breathlessness. 

I will admit that I'm having a pretty good time eating lately. While most people are working on their New Year's resolutions of dieting and heathy eating, I'm hitting up the new Bojangles in town for fried chicken and biscuits. I figure I will return to normal, disciplined eating soon enough and I haven't gained an excessive amount of weight by any means. 

There are sharp memories about my parents that stick out in my brain, particularly about my father. It's made me wonder which moments will stick out to my child. Will I be kind in those memories? Will I be wise? Will I be fair? I hope so.