Scary

Maybe it's just because I was in Nashville the weekend of the flooding. I don't know, but I feel heightened to the dangers of this world, natural and man-made. I don't think I was just naive during my early twenties, but perhaps I was. Life just seems scarier now than it ever has before. It seems like everywhere I look in the paper, the internet, the television, there is something about disaster. Flooding, oil spill, plane crash, school attacks, suicide bombs, war, tornado, unfaithful spouses, hurting children, drugs, abuse. It's scary and I think it does seem more real because I was actually in Nashville watching the water rise. It wasn't just in the pictures. And now I'm an adult with responsibility and things to lose. What if my house flooded? What if I lost someone in a plane crash? I think my love of life, Jared, friends, and family has gone deeper and that leaves a certain feeling of vulnerability. If I didn't care than I guess it wouldn't matter if I lost it. I can't change the world, but I do plan on going to work today to do my part. That's all I've got.