Parenting books

After Hunter was born, I bought two books on parenting an infant. I was so excited to read them that I gobbled them up within hours and then started to employ the new tips in a staccato-like fashion that ultimately lead to me feeling like a terrible parent, losing trust in my intuition, and having Jared tell me that I'm forbidden from reading any more parenting books as they make me crazy. In truth, I took a few tidbits from the books and am trying to let them go. Each child is different, each infant is certainly different, and there's no way to put it all down in a one-size-fits-all fashion. All children need to eat, sleep, and be loved but that looks like so many different things. My expression of love is different than yours. My sleep needs and habits are different than my husbands. My need for food is different right now than it was when I was pregnant and when I wasn't breastfeeding. Life is fluid and I want to be flexible. Yes, I want some routine and structure, but I also have to allow for change and new life within my life. I've sought lots of validation during this life-change which I suppose is to be expected. However, I also want to valid and support myself from within. I am a parent in the making.