uh oh

There was a round of layoffs at work this week. So far to my knowledge there have been 9 people laid off. I don't know all of details. However, I do know that it's frightening. I've worked in the extended care program for 10 months now. It's been a good and terrible, long, and short ten months. I left the world of cottage 1 and fun shoe fridays and entered a completely different world in spite of both places being on the same campus. I've still gone down the hill at least once a week for lunch with my buddies, but I didn't go this week. It's just not the same when one of my dearest Bradford friends is not present. I didn't want to sit in the office where we played hundreds of games of sorry and princess uno and try to act okay. So, I stayed away this week. I believe this will call for the development of new rituals and perhaps a lunch off campus. I've been absolutely emotionally exhausted this week. After having a blast in Utah and then coming back into a thick caseload with difficult patients and layoffs, it's been a long week. I took a nap after work both yesterday and today. I just needed to rest. I'm trying to work on self care and paint and exercise and journal, but I just want to sleep some. I want to cocoon in my bed and be free from worries for a bit.